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Posted on 2009.05.02 at 12:50
I am 21.  I have been out of High School for 3 years.  I have nothing to show for it.  

But I am gonna get blackout fucking drunk tonight and not give a shit.  Tomorrow is a new day and I will be in Sacramento in 2 months.  Life can only get better.

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Posted on 2009.03.19 at 13:40
Just to let everyone know, I have stopped posting my 365 on LJ.  It was too pointless.  All the images can be found on my flickr though.  And perhaps on some days I will post the picture, if I like it a whole lot.

Yesterday Ed did my tattoo.  I wasn't expecting him to finish the whole thing, but he did.  I bled a shit ton and was getting antsy near the end.  It took over 3 hours.

This is the only picture I have, and I am sure most of you have already seen it.  But yeah....



I really want to make a stencil right now, but I can't think of what.  Michelle says an ostrich, but I dunno...  Ideas?


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Posted on 2009.03.16 at 01:10
So today was fucking lame.  I basically hate Keegan and Christian.  To the nth Degree.  Some of you may understand why at this point, but seriously, tonight was the last straw.  I am sick of people walking all over me and when I finally do decide to lay down the law they just don't take me seriously.  I have run out of ideas though.

Luckily today was Chicken Caesar Salad Wrap Sunday (courtesy of Cirillo), so it wasn't all bad.  I also finished my Holga (yes Michael, Holga) roll and got to develop that.  They should be ready tomorrow or Tuesday.  Apparently something was broken at Greene's so she told me to check back Tuesday after 3, but for future reference it only takes a day.  Which rules.

Anyways, I have been wearing my hair differently recently.  Mostly because I wear a beanie and it flattens it out.  But here isDay 7Collapse )


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Oops!

Posted on 2009.03.15 at 11:34
Current Music: Bibio - Mrs. Compost | Powered by Last.fm
I forgot to post Day 6 here yesterday!  I meant to post to LJ after work but I was just in a bummer mood at the time.  So yesterday I had the pillowfight.  It was a lot of fun even if only 25 people showed up.  Then I had some whole foods deliciousness and came home to wait it out until I had to go to work.  

Work was slow as shit and  I was in a really bad mood.  Hopefully today will be better.  My plans are to finish my 120 roll, finish my 35mm roll, develop my 35mm roll and hopefully have a film 365 for today.  I'll probably post again for Day 7, but until then,Day 6:Collapse )


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Posted on 2009.03.14 at 00:04
So today was okay.  I had school.  Some of my classes were cancelled which was awesome. And we watched Notorious in Film Appreciation.  It was good but not because i had never seen it, but I had to leave after the climax but before the end which sucked.  Work was so fucking slow too. 

But the pillowfight is tomorrow and i am way stoked, I got a couple texts from people asking about it.  And Courtney Harkin's lil sibs came in and made sure it was tomorrow.  Okay, I dunno what else to talk about.  I will have a shit ton of pictures after tomorrow but here is Day 5:Collapse )


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Posted on 2009.03.13 at 00:23
Day 4Collapse )

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Seemed much less eventful

Posted on 2009.03.11 at 00:24
Current Music: Mauro playing Pikmin Giddilu
Today I worked.  It was tuesday which means that Mauro and I opened together.  Nothing really happened at work today.  It was incredibly slow, and for the first time since it came out, Slumdog went a set (timeslot) without selling a single ticket.  The rest of the day continued it's slowness.  I took some pictures at work but nothing too interesting. 

I am starting to miss people to hango out with after hours.  Mauro and maggie are good times but they never want to leave the apartment at night.  I always want to just go someplace and do something but we usually just sit at the apartment playing video games or watching vids.  Courtney was a good person to befriend since we used to just meet up at midnight and go buy slurpees and sit at the beach.  But that was so long ago.

I took about a 45 minute break when writing this so I kinda forgot where I was.  I guess I will just leave you with Day 2:Collapse )


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Here is my life

Posted on 2009.03.09 at 16:45
Current Music: Joy Division - A Means to an End | Powered by Last.fm
This has been interesting.  My world has recently just been fucking beaten up and i don't really know what to do about it.  I am sick of Monterey to the point of as soon as I get 1500 saved up, I might be leaving.  This will only take me a month and a half.  The biggest problem about this is I don't know where I would go, and I would have to quit school.

The latter problem seems much less important at this point anyways.  Since more than likely I would be leaving this state, I would need to take a year off of school anyways.  Thanks out of state tuition, why don't you just take my virginity too?  (oh wait...).  So I really don't care if I don't finish this semester since I will need a "get your shit back on course" semester anyways after taking that break.

As of now, there are really only 3 locations I am even considering going to: Portland, Sacremento and Sonoma.  Not necessarily in that order (while Sonoma is last, I can't decide between Portland and Sacremento).  But seeing as how time is running short, I need to decide soon.  

Monterey just has nothing for me at this point.  I have met everyone in the area there is to meet.  If I haven't met someone yet, chances are they suck and are not worth meeting anyways.  

I ran into Will Adams (year younger, went to high school with him, rad guy) and Sam Skemp (don't remember why I know him) today.  Will was on yearbook and told me that I won "Most likely to see around Monterey" in High School, but they axed it because I won 3 awards and they only wanted me to have one (Most Fashionable lolz).  But I find that award highly depressing.  I don't really know if it is because I can't figure out its true meaning (Either, most likely to see around or Most likely to be in Monterey forever), but all I can say is that I am stoked it was cut.  

After seeing them, I saw Adam B and realized that I need to hango ut with him more.  He was hanging out with his ladyfriend Nickie and her friend Aaliyah (i think?).  It was quite a change from who I am used to hanging out with and I couldn't figure out why.  It was reminiscent of when I dated Lauren and hung out with the Alvarado Rats.  I never felt like i belonged with them but for some reason today, it just worked.  Aaliyah drew a picture of me riding a unicycle.  It kinda ruled.  I may scan it later. 

This post is really scattered but I just feel so pitiful right now.  Like, I can't find happiness in anywhere and yesterday was the first day I could have a full meal in 9 days.  My appettite had disappeared.  

I really want to get back into photography.  So I am going to start doing a 365 type project.  Except instead of a picture of me, it might just be a picture from the day.  I will post the first one later tonight after I go out.  It will probably be something lame, like of the sky or something.  I dunno.  Whatever forces me to take my camera places.  I can't decide if I should post it here or my flickr or both.  Time will tell.

I really just want to be held right now.  I miss my mom (she is in Ireland and I haven't talked to her in a week).  She is moving back to AZ in 3 weeks and I don't know how I am going to handle it.  I hated talking serious to her until just recently.  My sister made me realize how much my mom respects me and my opinion.  If there was anyone able to convince my mom not to leave, it would have been me.  I know it is what she needs to do, but just the thought of not having a retreat to Big Sur available to me seems unreal.  I almost don't know how to take it.

This is especially hard now that I have two [three?] roommates (Dylan officially moves his shit in tomorrow and Mauro is always here).  I just can't find alone time for the life of me.  I feel as if that may be why I feel like shit all the time.  

That or the fact that I have started smoking again.  I hate cigarettes but they really are a huge stress reliever.  I smoked 12 the other night just because I was drunk and stressed.  They helped for the moment but the next morning may have been the worst of my life.  I cried for the first time in over two years (correct me if that is wrong, someone?).  The worst part is I don't even know why.  I just have this feeling of failure right now.  Which is weird, because i have never had that feeling before.... even when I have failed.

I just have no motivation.  I refuse to ask people for help (personal flaw #32) and therefore can't get the things I need to get done done.  I am also indecisive.  Thus the living situation.  I am really leaning towards Sacremento with Chelsea, Sarah and Shalamar (3 of my 7 friends of lj).  But I could never live with any of them.  And I am sure they probably agree with me on that.  They would kill me before I kill them.  And the idea of having to meet people all over again scares me.  I always want to talk to people but am afraid of the judgement that follows. 

First impressions are everything and I seem to make horrible ones.  I am always grateful for second chances and for a good conversation, because that's the shit that gets me friends.

So if you have made it this far, thanks, I love you, all that good stuff.  EDIT:

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Posted on 2009.03.03 at 19:34
Current Music: Save it for later - The English Beat
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Posted on 2009.02.02 at 19:48
Current Music: Animal Collective - In the Flowers | Powered by Last.fm
It has been a while so here are some pictures to catch you up!Collapse )


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